Monday, August 4, 2008
To My Parents
i always though that we live in different world. i had been studying their world since birth till today i'm still in the mission of studying. but, did they ever study my world?
mummy, daddy:
"i know your world mum, dad. i understand every word that you say to me is for my own good. i am well aware of that. but are you aware that your son is having a hard time coping with you guys? i am suffering in a simple word. i know i should not say that, but that is the bare truth of what i am feeling right now and in the pass. i never thought that i will have a face to face, heart to heart, conversation with you guys. it took me a lot of time to pick up the courage to start this conversation. an hour more conversation let me see more on how do you care for me and my sister and how fortunate are we. i thank God for that, but bearing with you guys must be a lesson that God wants me to learn. but did you that know you yourself have the responsible to learn my world. like how i learn yours. i had been trying to cope with you guys since the day i started to know this world. i have been trying my best, and with God's help, i, myself had to say that i had done my very best to learn and cope into your world. i am only an average boy with average academic results, and average skills of life. i know in your eyes i am still a kid which still don't know much about this world and not mature enough to deal with stuff . i know you are trying your best to protect me and let me grow under your wings. to grow up as a fine man and have the ability to take care of my own, physically, emotionally and spiritually. i, myself am very aware of that. so i had done my best to archive all i can in my academic and my own dream of learning music. honestly i think i had done fair enough in my academic and i will be getting my basic certificates for my piano practical and theory. i can say that in terms of academic and achievement, i am ready to go out. then in terms of physical, emotional and spiritual, i am still learning, but i believe in God who He is the All-Mighty Lord will have every thing i need ready for me to face any obstacle ahead. i would pray hard for Him to show me the way that he had for me, in serving Him in what ever position in this world. lastly, the AFS programe is not everything. you guy's support is what i longed for a long long time. you guys had never been supportive in anything thing that means a lot to
me. i never had your support much. you can say that you had support me for 17 years in my education and living. you send me to whole lot of tuition just to make sure that i archive better results, not for you guys but for my own good. i am aware of that so, i have no disagreement and cope with you guys and go for every tuition and in my best, i try to study in it. you guys had support very much in this term. but do u know that i never feel the support? my heart is empty. if there is support form you guys. i can say that your support is nothing compare to anything in this world!!! and i mean ANYTHING!!! i would not be asking much form you guys, just support form you guys would be much appreciated. i will pray hard to God that he would lead our way. i'll always have fate in Him. may God bless."
to my readers:
sorry to make you guys to read this whole long post. i'm feeling better now after saying everything that i want. comment on this post would be disallow. because i would not want to talk about this any further. TQ. may God bless all. amen.
Vincent Choo ♥
11:14 PM
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