Tuesday, December 23, 2008
What Should I Do?
what should i do now?!
this is the question that hunts me right now. dad finally said yes about my plan on not going to PLKN and straight going to college for the 1st intake. but mum suffered a lot helping me out. dad was persisting in his way and so am i. he wants me to go for PLKN but i don't. i felt really really sorry for mum who bare on the pressure standing between us. she feels really stress and so am i and i believe so is dad. mum cried every time we talk about this thing. but i cant do anything.
now mum said that if i choose to go for PLKN to do whatever dad wants me to do, every thing would be fine. dad would be happy and willing to let me go to whatever college i like. and mum would not have to suffer any further pain.
but if i choose to go directly to college skipping PLKN, dad still would let me go. but with a heart full of unwillingness. dad would not care a thing on whatever i choose and whatsoever problem will be blame on mum's head. mum will have to bare all the problem that i had made, if i do anything wrong. family's future happiness wont be looking good.
by looking at the above analysis, the 1st choice of going to PLKN seems to be a better choice. but did they ever consider what i think and how i feel? did he ever consider about that?! every thing has to be done in his way, no other options! is that the way things had to be done?! i tried to talk but he wouldn't want to listen. infect he was the one who told me to talk with my mum. well, i'm not fighting back because of i want to fight. it's because, PLKN is an useless programe that is plain wasting my time. think about it, the 2nd intake for ICOM will be in July! after 3 months of PLKN which ends on March, i still have to wait for another 3 months then only i can go into college. after 2 years of studying in KL, meaning it ends on July 2011. i will have to wait for another 5 months for Berklee's intake in January 2012.
which if i skip PLKN and join the 1st intake, i will end my 2 years KL course on December 2010. and will be joining Berklee's intake in January 2011. because of one stupid programe had draged me for a year time! tell me, which one is better now?
depression is the word that describe me best right now. i need your advice and your prayer. please help me.
GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!
Vincent Choo ♥
10:06 PM
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