Sunday, August 2, 2009
Homesick
i would not use the word homesick unless i really mean it. i had been outstation to KL to study for 3 months already. most of the time i do not had too much trouble coping with the new environment. only some time when i'm alone or hungry i would start to think about my family back home. my 2 lovely sister and my mother's delicious cooking.
i had fallen sick through out the weekend. high fever, flu, irritating caught, headache, body ache, vomiting, you name it i got it. it started on friday evening. and it went worst on saturday morning. so i called up Ashely to fetch me to a clinic. it was so kind of her to do so. after examined by the doctor, we went back to my place. i have no one on the look out for me, so i have to take care of my own although i am sick. cause if i don't, no one will.
so for the last whole day i had been doing nothing except sleeping and drinking. i was suffering from headache until body ache. when ever i move, every inch of my body is crying out loud of pain. but when ever my alarm rang, i had to get up no matter how pain it is to take my medication. thats the only way i'm gona recover from my sickness. and there you have it. i'm feeling much more better today. hopefully i would be fully recovered by tomorrow.
i had never experience this sickness as strong as this before. i felt like crying even when i'm thinking about it at some point. its not because of the pain or ruthless experience i had gone through. its that i was all alone when i was sick. no one was on my watch when i was sick. i felt alone, alone to face the sickness myself. i felt vulnerable when i'm sick. i cant do anything except to rest and drink. i barely step out of my room except for going to the toilet and make myself some meals. only bread are serve here for myself. i dont have the strength to fix myself a better meal at this condition.
when physically i'm sick it tigers my mentally sickness too. i never felt homesick this strong before. not until i'm sick. if i'm at home, mommy will take care of me and the other things until i'm fully recovered.
i officially am announcing that i am diagnosed with a mental sickness that is far beyond any physical illness. that is
HOMESICKp/s: i want to thank those who sms me and left a word on face book for me. thank you guys.
Vincent Choo ♥
3:28 PM
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