Saturday, October 11, 2008
Current Life (part 3)
in my current life, an 17 years old life which is a lost life. i lost my direction in my future studies. as a form 5 student, i'll be graduating from high school at this end of the year after my big exam, SPM. then i'll leave high school and continue my studies in other college or university. but here is the poit where i lost. i have no idea where am i going!
lost life as in:what do you want to be? this is a question that frequently pop into my mind. i have no clear direction to go. if you ask me, do you have a dream to chase for? i'll answer yes! because there is this dream that i had of, music. music is something that i am capable of. something that contain of part of me. so, with this dream there is one clear path to go and that is to study performing arts. but......
knowing that after graduation, what is the opportunity to be in this area. as in Malaysia do not provide a good environment. it surely will be a hard path to go through. but if it is only just that i have to face, i would go for it. but, there is a hundred of but to debut my dream. without a persons family support, it is hardly archived. my parents do not show positive side when i mention about this. i understand that it is a hard path to walk and i know they knew this too. so they would not want to see thier son to go through this hardship, so they had been preparing me to be well educated to go for better choices like engineering, doctors and lawyers. which can ensure to have a steady income and which are handsomely paid.
so this lead me to have to pick up a second choice if i could not take up music. so my second choice that i had recently made is to take up commerce or business studies. but when i mention this to my mum, i had an unexpected respond from her. she was like "what? business? ain't that a little bit too easy or other word cheap?" i'm deeply troubled by that respond. why is business is cheap in her eyes? i can see that she is expecting something more then that from me. one thing that i found out from the education fairs these days is business studies is not as popular as engineering. students which are top students would prefer more to engineering. is it a trends or it is clearly state that engineering is far more better then business?
engineering is a far more hard subject to study and it requires students who really good in maths and science subject. it have equations and inequalities which always make me dizzy when looking at them through out the whole subject. so that explain why more top students prefer engineering than business. because they have the ability to manage this subject that not all can do. in business or commerce it does not require that much of qualification. it is a much more easy subject to pick up. only needing communication skills and good accounting ability well kinda do well in it.
comparing both engineering subjects and business subjects. engineering is a job that can ensure me to get a steady income and it ain't small. in business there is a risk that had to be picked up. with a slightly mistake or miscounting, lost would be uncountable. but income sometime would be far more handsome then engineering with good management and so fort.
as a science students i still have the chance to pick up any subject that i want to. i have a wider variety of choice to pick from. so i would not want to loose my stand in picking up a wrong subject that would make me regret my whole life. of cause behind every subject there is still always the risk and hardship to encounter. it is just the mater in viewing it.
i'm not far from making my choice now. after my SPM in November, there will be intake in every college and university in the starting of the year of 2009 in January, February and March. have to make my choice now and take my opportunity in applying for scholarship available that is offered by everywhere now. although i have not much dazzling A1s categorizing me as the top students but i still wish that i still can get something. this is something that i will have to face for not studying hard for my secondary school studies.
so what to choose? to pursue my dreams in
music or
business or
engineering? what to choose??? someone please give some comments, especially those out there who had already gone through this process. your experience is much appreciated. all i can do now is to study hard for my SPM and try to get some more good results. hopefully. because my future kinda rely on it from now on.
music?
business?
engineering?
or others?
this will be the last part of my Current life post of total of 3 parts of them which are:
Current Life(part 1) [Busy life]
Current Life (part 2) [Disappointing Life]
Current life (part 3) [Lost Life]
HOPING FOR A BETTER TOMORROW
DAWN IS BREAKING AND ITS A NEW DAY
31 days to SPM
only a moth left!!! VINCENT, ADD OIL!!!!
Vincent Choo ♥
10:10 AM
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